Jermz Ponders

I finally had it…

a moment of clarity in which one discovers the reason behind something significant. Hello epiphany, my name is Jeremiah. I start to realize how much of my decision making is completely horrendous or non-existent because of lousy guidance. I mean, if I had the clout to make the decision I didn’t make back then I would be completely different. One thing is for certain I would be way more successful with everything I would endeavor in, rather than scraping the bottom of the barrel of community college trying to get myself out of there. As well as having a certificate of completion in pharmacy technician which I don’t use because the labor system is so screwed up along with the economy. Really? How is one suppose to get experience when one doesn’t have a job. I don’t know maybe I should’ have stuck with my first job and bite the bullet everyday. The lack of making an adequate decision is my downfall, and I always having to rely on being told what to do isn’t my fault it is the way I was raised. I guess now since I had this epiphany I’ll be making more decisions on my own although they might not be great because I have to start off from square one. Only if I had more trust in myself rather than others everything would be better, but I have to a steeper learning curve because of the age factor… I don’t know I just really have myself to blame for not realizing this earlier…

Song of this emotion: Nobody’s Fault by Bachelor Of Science featuring Audio Angel.

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